The number 4..a blessing or a curse?

ok so in the last year i've been encountering the number 4 alot! and well it seemed that it had always been something bad for example the guy i had a crush on acted like a jerk so i picked out of a deck of cards to sea weather i'd forgive him or not (spades forgive clubs hate red card forget) and i must have done this about 10 times and like 7 or 8 of those times it was the 4 of spades. or the alternative story of why 6 is afraid of 7 ( the whole 789 thing is so corny i had to look up for another explanation) but anyway whenever i get a 4 something always happens. anyway lets fast forward: i've decided this year for 8th grade im going to make this year the best it can be and i received my homeroom number and the first number was 4 but then i had found out that my best friend is in the same homeroom so maybe its actually a good number idk? well do you think the number for is cursed to haunt me forever or a blessing in disguise?